Sunday, August 4, 2013

The Wall

"This is the Wall" says the Gatekeeper, slapping the broad side of the battlements. "Seven yards tall, circles the whole Town. Only birds can clear the Wall. No entrance or exit except this Gate. Long ago there was the East Gate, but they walled it up. You see these bricks? Nothing can dent them, not even a cannon."

The Gate keeper picks up a scrap of wood and expertly pares it down to tiny sliver.

"Watch this," he says. He runs the sliver of wood between the bricks. It hardly penetrates a fraction of an inch. He tosses the wood away, and draws the tips of his knife over the bricks. This produces an awful sound, but leaves not a mark. He examines his knife, then puts it away.

"This Wall has no mortar," the Gatekeeper states. "There is no need. The bricks fit perfect; not a hair-space between them. Nobody can put a dent in the Wall. And nobody can climb it. Because this Wall is perfect. So forget any ideas you have. Nobody leaves here."

The Gatekeeper lays a giant hand on my back.

"You have to endure. If you endure, everything will be fine. No worry, no suffering. It all disappears. Forget about the shadow. This is the End of the World. This where the world ends. Nowhere further to go."

Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World By Haruki Murakami


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"I prefer being unfree, too. Up to a point, Jean-Jacques Rousseau defined civilization as when people build fences. A very perceptive observation. And it's true- all civilization is the product of a fenced-in lack of freedom. The Australian Aborigines are the exception, though. They managed to maintain a fenceless civilization until the seventh century. They're dyed-in-the-wool free. They go where they want, when they want, doing what they want. Their lives are a literal journey. Walkabout is perfect metaphor for their lives. When the English came and built fences to pen in their castle, the Aborigines couldn't fathom it. And, ignorant to the end of the principle at work, they were classified as dangerous and antisocial and were driven away, to the outback. So I want you to be careful. The people who build high, string fences are the ones who survive the best. You deny the reality only at the risk being driven into the wilderness yourself."

Kafka on the Shore By Haruki Murakami

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"There was a wall. It did not look important. It was built of uncut rocks roughly mortared. An adult could look right over it, and even a child could climb it. Where it crossed the roadway, instead of having a gate it degenerated into mere geometry, a line, an idea of boundary. But the idea was real. It was important. For seven generations there had been nothing in the world more important than that wall. Like all walls it was ambiguous, two-faced. What was inside it and what was outside it depended upon which side of it you were on."

"The Dispossessed: An Ambiguous Utopia" by Ursula K. Le Guin

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"Entrance not for Everybody." And: "For madmen only." I scrutinized the old wall opposite in the secret hope that the magic night might begin again; the writing invite me, the madman; the little doorway give me admittance. There perhaps lay my desire, and there perhaps would my music be played.

The dark stone wall looked back at me with composure, shut off  in a deep twilight, sunk in a dream of its own. And there was no gateway anywhere and no pointed arch; only the dark unbroken masonry. With a smile I went on, giving it a friendly nod. "Sleep well. I will not awake you. The time will come when you will be pulled down and plastered with covetous advertisements. But for the present, there you stand beautiful and quiet as ever, and I love you for it."

Steppenwolf by Hermann Hesse

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"The woman down there had no mind, she had only strong arms, a warm heart and a fertile belly. He wondered how many children she had given birth to. It might easily be fifteen. She had had her momentary flowering, a year, perhaps, of wildrose beauty, and then she had suddenly swollen like a fertilised fruit and grown hard red and coarse, and then her life had been laundering, scrubbing, darning, cooking, sweeping polishing, mending, scrubbing, laundering, first for children, then for grandchildren, over thirty unbroken years. At the end of it she was still singing. The mystical reverence that he felt for her was somehow mixed up with the aspect of the pale, cloudless sky, stretching away behind the chimney pots into interminable distances. It was curious to think that the skye was the same for everybody, in Eurosia or Eastasia as well as here. And the people under the sky were also very much the same - everywhere, all over the world, hundreds of thousands of millions of people just like this, people ignorant of one another's existence, held apart by walls of hatred and lies, and yet almost exactly the same - people who had never learned to think by who were storing up in their hearts and bellies and muscles the power that would one day overturn the world. If there was hope, it lay in the proles!"

Nineteen Eighty-Four, George Orwell


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Here is what I do on the first day of snowfall every year: I step out of the house early in the morning, still in my pajamas, hugging my arms against the chill. I find the driveway, my father's car, the walls, the threes, the rooftops, and the hills buried under a foot of snow. I smile. The sky is seamless, the snow so white my eyes burn. I shovel a handful of the fresh snow into mouth, listen to the muffled stillness broken only by the cawing of crows. I walk down the front steps, barefoot, and call for Hassan to come out and see."

From "The Kitten Runner", Khaled Hosseini

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"...By the time, she was thirteen, she was having terrible depressions, and of course the whole time, whatever she was feeling, May was feeling. And then, when April was fifteen, she took our father's shotgun and killed herself"

I hadn't expected that. I sucked in my breath, then felt my hand go up and cover my mouth.

"I know," said August. "It's terrible to hear something like that." She paused a moment. "When April died, something in May died, too. She never was normal after that. It seemed like the world itself became May's twin sister."

August's face was blending into the tree shadows, I slid up in my chair so I could still see her.

"Our mother said she was like Mary, with her heart on the outside of her chest. Mother was good about taking care of her, but, when she died, it fell to me and June. We tried for years to get May some help. She saw doctors, but they didn't have any idea what to do with her except put her away. So June and I came up with this idea of wailing wall."

"A what kind of wall?"

"Wailing wall," she said again. "Like they have in Jerusalem." The Jewish people go there to mourn. It's a way for them to deal with their suffering. See, they write their prayers on scraps of paper and tuck them in the wall."

"And that's what May does?"

August noded. "All those bits of papers you see out there struck between the stones are things May 
has written down - all the heavy feelings she carries around. It seems like the only thing that helps her."

I looked in the direction of the wall, invisible now in the darkness. Birmingham, Sept 15, four little angles dead.

"Poor May," I said.

"Yes," said August. "Poor May." And we sat in the sorrow for a while, until the mosquitoes collected around us and chased us indoors. "

From "The Secret Life of Bees", Sue Monk Kidd

Saturday, July 27, 2013

What if i say

What if i say, it is an April evening in the time,
A most spacious wind is blowing from you,
I am watching the bluest of the seas in you,
And, I am wandering the deepest forests in you.
I have picked off the flowers from you, never wither,
I have harvested the soil on you, blessed.
And, i have tasted every kind of fruit in you.

What if i say, for me; you are,
Something needed like air,
Sacred like bread,
And venerable like water
You are a blessing... You are a blessing...
What if i say,
Believe me, my dear, believe me,
You are the rejoice in my home, spring in my garden,
the oldest wine on my table.
I am living in you,
You are prevailing in me.
Leave me to say your beauty,
Together with winds, rivers and birds.

Many days later, one day
If you cannot hear my voice,
From the voice of the winds, rivers and birds,
You'll know that I am dead.
But still, don’t grieve, 
In the grave, I’ll tell about your beauty to the tranquility.   
And later
When you hear my voice once again in the skies,
Just know, it is the last judgment day.
I am just out there in the crowd
Looking for you…

Cahit Sitki Taranci

It is a Turkish poem called "Desem ki"  from Cahit Sitki Taranci. (English translation by Emre and me.)

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Tampa






























Sunday, June 16, 2013

Bright






This is one side of Turkey during the riots; bright, innocent, and free.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Enjoying the Echoes

“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.”


Kafka on the Shore, Haruki Murakami


And enjoying the echoes around USF library:

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Inventing the Future

We are still the masters of our fate. Rational thinking, even assisted by any conceivable electronic computers, cannot predict the future. All it can do is to map out the probability space as it appears at the present and which will be different tomorrow when one of the infinity of possible states will have materialized. Technological and social inventions are broadening this probability space all the time; it is now incomparably larger than it was before the industrial revolution—for good or for evil.

The future cannot be predicted, but futures can be invented. It was man’s ability to invent which has made human society what it is. The mental processes of inventions are still mysterious. They are rational but not logical, that is to say, not deductive.

Dennis Gabor, 1963

Flamarabenco


Saturday, May 25, 2013

Numbers

There is no biggest number. 

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Oysa bir bardak su yetiyordu saçlarını ıslatmaya
Bir dilim ekmeğin bir iki zeytinin başınaydı doymamız
Seni bir kere öpsem ikinin hatırı kalıyordu
İki kere öpeyim desem üçün boynu bükük
Yüzünün bitip vücudunun başladığı yerde
Memelerin vardı memelerin kahramandı sonra 
Sonrası iyilik güzellik.



Cemal Surayya - Ask

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Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Smile

































The worst things got, in fact, the broader her smile became. I loved her smile. It smoothed me, encouraged me. "It'll be alright", her smile told me. "Just hang in there, and everything will turn out okay"

"South of the Border, West of the Sun", Haruki Marukami

Monday, May 6, 2013

Sunny Road


Friday, April 26, 2013

5


Friday, March 15, 2013

Elmalar

Bu geceki masalin sonunda batu yine elmalari kime verecegine karar verdi..

Gokten 3 elma dustuuu birincisiii
Batunun..
İkincisi edisiiin..
Ucuncusu alphan'niinnn..

Ozlediklerine dagitmis elmalari.. Oyle dedi..

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hehe :D

Monday, February 25, 2013

Batuuu!



Sunday, February 24, 2013

There are three rules for writing the novel

There are three rules for writing the novel. Unfortunately, no one knows what they are. 

W. Somerset Maugham

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Some people

Some people, like flowers, give pleasure just by being.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Harvest Moon


Thursday, January 24, 2013

Ailem

Ne kadar guzel seyler yapmislar ablam ve benim icin.

Goz Yasin

korkunun, caresizligin, zorla calinanlarin anlarin ve uzuntunun karisimiydi goz yasin.

ne kadar sarsici o anlari gozlerinde hissetmek.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Kar :)







Saturday, December 8, 2012

Kardes :)


 Iyi ki dogdun kardes!