Kardes :)

 Iyi ki dogdun kardes!

Remedios

Remedios, little girl, girl, beautiful, beautiful
Sitting on the seashore
And handfuls of pearls
The sun on your face and smile
white orchid, soul and dove
and joy, comfort you sing,
hope you sing, you sing remedies,
hopes that one day I can tell you:
"I love small, petite, pretty,
beautiful, Piccola Piccola Piccola,... "
Your story, once told us,
god, your brother with his guitar,
you were asleep down the moon,
you were happy, little Remedios,
hopes that one day I can tell you:
"I love you, baby, baby, beautiful,
beautiful, Piccola Piccola Piccola,..."
The sun on your face and smile,
white orchid, soul and dove
and joy, comfort you sing,
hope you sing, you sing remedies
hopes that one day I can tell you:
"I love you, baby, baby, beautiful,
beautiful, Piccola Piccola Piccola,..."


Gabriella Ferri

Hmm, Tango?

Ankara

From July, 2009.

Pastels

Haziran, 2010.

Full Moon and Half Moon :)

Re-qouting from Ursula K. Legun

“If you can see a thing whole," he said, "it seems that it's always beautiful. Planets, lives. . . . But close up, a world's all dirt and rocks. And day to day, life's a hard job, you get tired, you loose the pattern. You need distance, interval. The way to see how beautiful earth is, is to see it from the moon. The way to see how beautiful life is, is from the vantage point of death."


Thanks to Sadia for the telescope.

Asmali Mescid Hatirasi

Mayis, 2011.

Child

Sariyer

What if?

Around

Blah Blah Blah

Piano

Dangerous

Enjoy the silence!

Arkadas, bu sarki cok guzel ya! Acilen konsere gitmem lazim :)

Words like violence

Break the silence

Come crashing in

Into my little world

Painful to me

Pierce right through me

Can't you understand

Oh my little girl

All I ever wanted

All I ever needed

Is here in my arms

Words are very unnecessary

They can only do harm

Vows are spoken

To be broken

Feelings are intense

Words are trivial

Pleasures remain

So does the pain

Words are meaningless

And forgettable

All I ever wanted

All I ever needed

Is here in my arms

Words are very unnecessary

They can only do harm

Enjoy the silence

Martin Gore

It is always red.

It is always red. (The entrance of engineering building.)

Sun Dial

"Vulnerant omnes, ultima necat." 
(all wound, and the last kills.)


A sun dial motto.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_sundial_mottos

Devir Dondu

"Devir dondu, zaman yine pic oldu."

Teslim Abdal (Elif Safak, Pinhan - Felaket bolumunun ilk kismindan.)

Down In The Walley

I saw a lady. I said hi. She had pain in her eyes. She was tipsy at yesterday's night she said. I left. Being lost but not even cry.

On the way back home, i dreamed a question: "Hey do you sell hope for your customer?". I change my way and i went there. But, i couldn't ask since the question was weird. I sit on the couch. I drunk my tea. I read my book.

I think i saw a dream over there. I don't know rest of my life. It is fact. But, i think i saw the most beautiful girl in my life.

Why are you holding your hair like that? Where did you find your white dress with that tons of red spots? You are smiling? Are your eyes real? How come they so shinny and shy at the same time? Are you real?

Then, owner of the shop came to me. He said "Can i interrupt your reading for a moment?" I said "Sure". Then, he told me with all his kindness that he wanted to share his three stories. He was selecting the words while he was talking. Then, he signed his stories for me. He didn't gave me only his stories, he gave me hope like a tea even if he doesn't know.

The time was running. She was there, but i couldn't even move. I knew 11pm was the time to leave. I knew she was waiting me to say something. At 11pm, she left. I wasted two minutes around to say something to her. I looked around. But, i couldn't find her...

Were you real?

Toe Te Ching

Kirilmamak icin bukul,
Duz olmak icin egil,
Dolmak icin bosal,
Parcalan ki yenilen,
Az seye sahip olanlar,
Coga kavusabilirler,
Cok seyi olanlarin zihni karisir.

Toe Te Ching 22 (Elif Safak, Pinhan - Emenat bolumunun ilk kismindan.)

Kite

"Don't ignore the small things -- the kite flies because of its tail."

Hawaiian proverb / A quote from the garden of USF Engineering Building

Dali

Salvador Dali Museum Tampa
http://thedali.org/exhibits/current-highlights.php

Here are my favorites:

The Hallucinogenic Toreador


















The Average Bureaucrat


















Weaning of Furniture Nutrition















Gala Contemplating the Mediterranean Sea which at Twenty Meters Becomes the Portrait of Abraham Lincoln


















Basket of Bread

Hairspray

Hairspray at USF! I think love the moment when the curtain is removed and the stage is revealed. It is like opening the package of a gift :) "You can't stop the beat!" as they said :) I remember the moments i drink the tango beats like a water when i am craving for it.

After the musical, i went to fill our water containers. Then, i got my coffee and stopped by the parking lot which is the one of highest buildings around USF for me. You know Tampa is almost flat city, even there is no small hill. Anyways, the sky was very clear. I admit that i was lucky: a star has fallen just near Jupiter. It was beautiful. Make a wish!

Research-in-Progress

http://researchinprogress.tumblr.com/

"The Dispossessed" and "The Stars My Destination"

“You pigs, you. You rut like pigs, is all. You got the most in you, and you use the least. You hear me, you? Got a million in you and spend pennies. Got a genius in you and think crazies. Got a heart in you and feel empties. All a you. Every you...Take a war to make you spend. Take a jam to make you think. Take a challenge to make you great. Rest of the time you sit around lazy, you. Pigs, you! All right, God damn you! I challenge you, me. Die or live and be great. Blow yourselves to Christ gone or come and find me, Gully Foyle, and I make you men. I make you great. I give you the stars.”

“Be grateful that you only see the outward man. Be grateful that you never see the passions, the hatreds, the jealousies, the malice, the sicknesses... Be grateful you rarely see the frightening truth in people.”

Alfred Bester, The Stars My Destination


"There was a wall. It did not look important. It was built of uncut rocks roughly mortared. An adult could look right over it, and even a child could climb it. Where it crossed the roadway, instead of having a gate it degenerated into mere geometry, a line, an idea of boundary. But the idea was real. It was important. For seven generations there had been nothing in the world more important than that wall. Like all walls it was ambiguous, two-faced. What was inside it and what was outside it depended upon which side of it you were on."

"Change is freedom, change is life. It's always easier not to think for oneself. Find a nice safe hierarchy and settle in. Don't make changes, don't risk disapproval, don't upset your syndics. It's always easiest to let yourself be governed. There's a point, around age twenty, when you have to choose whether to be like everybody else the rest of your life, or to make a virtue of your peculiarities. Those who build walls are their own prisoners. I'm going to go fulfill my proper function in the social organism. I'm going to go unbuild walls."

“If you can see a thing whole," he said, "it seems that it's always beautiful. Planets, lives. . . . But close up, a world's all dirt and rocks. And day to day, life's a hard job, you get tired, you loose the pattern. You need distance, interval. The way to see how beautiful earth is, is to see it from the moon. The way to see how beautiful life is, is from the vantage point of death."

“The thing about working with time, instead of against it, he thought, is that it is not wasted. Even pain counts.”

Ursula K. Le Guin, The Dispossessed: An Ambiguous Utopia.



Today, we pass over the quotes from some books with Anas. I wish we could do it more often.

Especially i am hitting the wall when i read "got a million in you and spend pennies. Got a genius in you and think crazies. Got a heart in you and feel empties" and "the way to see how beautiful earth is, is to see it from the moon. The way to see how beautiful life is, is from the vantage point of death.""... i feel guilty because of the times that i don't smile. Even if i knew all these quotes before, sometimes, things break me down.

I have my freedom. What else do i want? Is it really possible a language without the words "me", "I", "my" and "mine"? Could we live without possessing anything?

Literature is good.

Zaman...

This photo is the definition of the HAPPINESS in my memories even if i am not sure i was crying or not. 

Dunyanin Sonu

"Dunyanin sonu insanin yureginin icinden gelir."

Haruki Murakami

Scent of Woman

I like this part of the movie!

Little things

"... you can tell a little thing from a big thing. What's very hard is to tell a little thing from nothing at all."

Michael Thun, 1995

Simdiki Zaman

Şimdiki zaman geri dönülmesi imkansız bir geçmiş ile belirsiz bir gelecek arasına sıkışmış kısacık bir andır. Avucunda sıkıca tutmazsan bir kuş gibi kanatlanır.

Çok değil bir kaç dakika evvel şimdi özlemle baktığın o masada, hayalin gerçeğe dönüştüğü anda gerçeği bırakıp bir başka düşün peşine düştün. Düşü gerçeğe, gerçeği düşe dönüştürdün.

Elindekinin değerini bilmeden başka değerlerin peşinde koşarken akıp gider zaman, bir gün farkına varır ki sahip olduğu en değerli şeyi tüm bir yaşamı harcamış insan.

Krem

Now is a fleeting moment caught between the irreversible past and the uncertain future. If you don’t keep it firmly in your palm, it flies like a bird.

Not so much, just a few minutes ago, at the table where you look longingly now, you went after another dream when the reality gave the chance for your dreams. You made a reality from the dream, and a dream from the reality.

The time flies while running for the values of others without feeling the preciousness in your palm. One day, you realize that the most valuable thing has been gone for nothing in your entire life.

Krem (English translation by Murat and me.)

Paris, Texas

Listen the colors, see the words!

Crooning

While we were dancing, you were crooning softly near my ears. Listening the feelings from an unknown language, hearing the timbre of your voice, and removing the barriers of the words. It was one of the best memories in Tampa.

Zeytin Dikeceksin!

"Yasamaya Dair" 'i kacinci kez okuyusum bilmiyorum ama her okudugumda daha da seviyorum! 


Bu kismi ozellikle cok seviyorum;


"yaşamayı ciddiye alacaksın,
yani o derecede, öylesine ki,
mesela, kolların bağlı arkadan, sırtın duvarda,
yahut kocaman gözlüklerin,
beyaz gömleğinle bir laboratuvarda
insanlar için ölebileceksin,
hem de yüzünü bile görmediğin insanlar için,
hem de hiç kimse seni buna zorlamamışken,
hem de en güzel en gerçek şeyin
yaşamak olduğunu bildiğin halde.

yani, öylesine ciddiye alacaksın ki yaşamayı,
yetmişinde bile, mesela, zeytin dikeceksin,
hem de öyle çocuklara falan kalır diye değil,
ölmekten korktuğun halde ölüme inanmadığın için,
yaşamak yanı ağır bastığından."

Gotan Project - Erase Una Vez

Vos me viniste a buscar 
para encontrar 
este lugar 
un paisaje, un campo azul, 
viento de sol 
no seré pobre con tanto amor, tanto sol, tanto mar, 
tanta verdad. 
Una chispa de eternidad, 
felicidad, noches, estrellas 
que nos olieron a su altar magica bebida celestial 
pampa y maíz. 
Vos y yo en un pais 
el mundo entero a mis pies 
érase una vez. 

If somebody translate into English, and send me, i would appreciate. Google translate isn't sufficient :)

Neurons

A couple of neuron can decide the existences of the cells in your hands, legs, indeed, all about your body. Are the cells aware of it?

Live, work, create!

I have recently discovered Kimiko Itoh. Thanks Emre :)

She has really nice voice! "River of cyrstals". I think it was the one of best song that could fit for the night driving yesterday in Tampa Downtown with a convertible car. Feeling the wind under stars in your palms, relaxing, silence of the night, and the music!

I think Esperanza Spalding - "Wild is the wind" might be great! :) Next time!

Anyway, title is from one of the photo that i have seen.

Mr. Tom

Mr. Tom with my hat!

Year 29

Mimic-less.
Point-less.

!

Yagmuru kim dokuyor? Unzile kac koyun ediyor!

Gelebildim diyebilmek mi cevap?

Bu nasil bir kisir dongudur arkadas! Nasil gececek tum bunlar? Neden? Sikayet etmiyorum. Dusunmeye calisiyorum.

Ucunu goremedigim ama hafifliginden hissettigim kadariyla ucu bos bir ipi inatla ve aciyla cekmek gibi. Bazen tam tersi. Kavgani sahiplenmek gibi.

Tom Hanks'in yaninda bir top vardi Cast Away'de. Kanli elleriyle yuz cizmisti uzerine. Adada kimse olmadigindan onunla konusuyordu. Sal ile tekrar evine gitmek icin acildiginda topu kaybettigi an aklimda kalmis. Biraz boyle bir tat iste.

Ya da bazen Sineklerin Tanrisi aklima geliyor. Bir grup adaya dusmus de dunyadan kopuk ve cocuk olmarina ragmen hiyerarsiyi, birbirine acimasizligi kesfetmisler taze taze. Biraz da boyle bir tat.

Neden? Cevap gelebildim diyebilmek mi?

Azicik daha yavas buyusen?

Ben oralarda degilken buyuyorsun ya! olmuyor hic! Biraz daha yavas buyusen hani! :)

Hep!

Bir gun sevdiklerini kaybettigini veya yanindayken kapilarin kapandigini dusunuyorsan, bekle derim ben. Sen yine de kapini kapatma kimselere. Gun gelir duzelir her sey. Sevgin, askin olsun hep!

Dogum gunun kutlu olsun Batu!

Tampa

I think i am afraid to like Tampa one day :)

Pas Rengi Yakali Papagan

Dun beni uyandirdin, dostum,
disari ciktim seni gormek icin:
yonca kokuyordu evren,
bir yildiz acmisti ciyde:
kimdin sen, neden sakiyordun
gonulden gelen sesinle
oyle yararsiz ve kesin?
...

"Kuslar Sanati" - Pablo Neruda

Arkadas nasil bir seydir bu!

Siyah Boyunlu Kugu

Yuzen karin ustunde
bir uzun, siyah soru isareti.

"Kuslar Sanati" - Pablo Neruda



Cok guzel anlatmis :)

Memories from August

After one year, i  have realized that there is a rectangular window (pulse shape) in the top-right corner!! It is stunning, but i am getting crazy, i guess. :)